Just [a] thought(s)

Ugh, SO frustrated [which is also a HUGE understatement]. It hurts so deeply to see a certain individual in dire need of the most love have a back turned on him/her. The ones who say "blood runs thicker then water" are just stepping aside and turning a blind eye, looking away, just being plain mean. In my mind, this situation requires the most love that can be mustered. To love like Jesus! What does it look like to love like Him? First off, who did Jesus spend most of His time with? The Bible gives clear examples of Him being with the lowly, the rejcts, the sinners, the sickly. Basically the ones that no one else wanted to be around. He was often criticized for being around them. Yet He is the Great Physician; "On hearing this, Jesus said to them, 'It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.'" Mark 2:17 Jesus is here to bring others to HIM! Who am I to judge a person and "see fit" that they aren't worthy of Jesus's love? I long for Jesus to live in me; if this is the case, wouldn't I just naturally be drawn to the sick and needy that others reject? What gets me, is that we are ALL called to love as Christ loves, to allow Jesus to live within us. Yet so often I see pride get in the way and it almost becomes a "I am following Him better then you are so thus I am more like Him and need more of Him then you." Perhaps this is all just my view point, but it saddens my heart so muchly. My continued goal is to continually seek to love as the Lord loves and seek out those who have no one else to love them and shine the light of Christ into their lives. Christ calls them to be His! My brothers and sisters. <3

Oi

Little bits here, little bits there. In some way or another, they all fit somewhere in the grand scheme of life. Revelations, confusions, new things, trying things. Head spinning, sleep much needed. Consistency. Perhaps one day it will all make some sort of sense.

Independence Day 2012

To be me. Just me. More often then not, I find myself in such a deep, contemplative thought. Small talk-what's that? Just cut to the chase and talk about deep theological things. No? My 4th of July has actually been quite amazing. From being woken up with the drumming on a pan lid, to being in the parade, to swimming. Overall with wonderful people. The night isn't over yet ... ending the night with baking cookies. Struggles about where I've been and what has happened in the past several years and the relations that stand as they are within certain perameters.... much hurt but also much peace. My life is great. How blessed I am to live among the free. To BE one of the free.

Here

Something has gotta give. Something has gotta go. Life is not being lived as it should be. Everytime it comes to *Making memories* all I can think of is "will this make a good facebook status?" I am tired of my online world. I am fed up with the desire to obtain "likes" to what I say. I am me. I am God's daughter. There is no need to be defined or identified by online popularity. But instead with what is in my heart. Spending time with people one on one and in groups is SO much more important to me then what others think in an online world. Back to living in the here and now, the present moment. Basking in the richness and glory of it!

Pieces of the Puzzle

Lord, You are good, You are like none other. You amaze me. I sit in awe of Your greatness.

You speak to me, You love me, You grant me clarity. Such peace. Such sweetness. So much goodness.

I am not made to go thru this world alone. I sit completely speechless as you slowly but surely reveal such beautiful things to me.

By prayer and petition my request was made known to You. In patience I sit and you answer in Your most perfect timing! What You gave me weeks ago is slowly but surely being given a meaning.

This I do indeed believe, and I quote, "God is Fantastic!"

The musings of the moment

Gates, fenced in, latched, nothing in, nothing out. Rusty gates, too frail, too fragile to be opened or moved. Chain fence, white picket fence, heavy duty fences. All serving the purpose to keep the good in and the bad out. But what if the bad is in and the good is out? What if there is bad inside that needs to be let out- or there is good outside that needs to come in?

Opening the gate to allow the freedom to stay balanced with the good in and bad out. Yet still guarded from every angle. Not having such thick walls up and internalizing. Being able to open the gates that lead to the inside (the mouth perhaps...) but knowing how far to open it and when, as well as when not to open it.